when i grow up..

If i have children in future... i want to let them know..

how great my life is...

how colourful life their daddy went through...

how i enjoy and how I fight for my life..

how i make it interesting..

how to share my experience that are very helpful to those ppl i willing to share with..

how how how? ....

through http://www.facebook.com/jerrymousy

hahahhahaa... juz realised ..with the new timeline... i can see back... how my life been filled with such joy moment... and some emo status when im down ofcourse..hehehehe..

human is forgetful...sometimes we wont realised how much we enjoyed that past particular moment when we're enjoying it... after some time... which cost us some separation..some quarrel..some incident...some issues...

We then very nostalgically...missed the moment that we been before... that we created...that we had fun before... thinking why we did not enjoy as much as we can when there's a chance to enjoy it?

February liao lu.......... ;(((((((

i love my baby so much...

Where is everybody ?

Blog not found****appears when u click at one's blog link..
... Where are all the friends that usually blogging when they're free...???
Most of them gone...and most of them also.....not updating their blog for quite a long time now..

When u blog..usually..u might click into other's blog and see what they're up to..and what they're updating....what's new in their life...

But this time when i click(it's been a long time i didnt visit others blog)...all gone without any knowings...

The feeling im trying to express is....

It's ike...losing somebody in your life...

Life is so, while u have a bunch of friends..all gathering around and spending time together...
and eventually when time is up... where all of them need to fly to their dreams...

Time goes on and on..and so on...

Some may become successful..some not...and some..might not be in the world anymore...



Keep in contact and show concern to the one you worth caring for...

While people are concerning about you....it's just because you're the person who made them think that you're worth to cherish for...worth paying attentions to...

Meanwhile in the same way...you cherish them..appreciate the bond..and become a better person to live on your life.. a change that make them feel proud of...

<3

需要与应该。。

需要。。

---是人脑对各种身体和社会需求的反映。
需要按照不同的标准可以分为生理性需要
和社会性需要以及物质需要和精神需要等。

应该。。
--1.情理上必然或必须如此
2.不应该试图逃避责任

两个字眼。。很简单。。很普通。。。。。。却很难用。。

从网上找到的含义。。。不如亲身领悟的含义了解得还深。。

无事不登三宝殿的人。。

从来不把这个部落各当成一个会让我更舒服的地方。。
其实一直以来。。。
开这个部落各的原因是。。。跟潮流。。
已接近五个月了。。也好久没动到我的手提电脑了。。无意间看到我曾经时常去emo的地方。。


就是这里。。。



以前用的是英语。。今天就很偶然的用用拼音吧。。。感觉比较感性。。试看表达自己。。

我已迷失了自己。。

想念以前的我。。也同时在寻找。。真正的我。。。应该。。本来的。。。陈建有。。
着几个星期啊。。超难过的。。一大堆大学科系选择的烦恼。。自己情绪上的浪潮。。脾气的问题。。
一大堆在我这么需要冷静思考的时候跑出来。。

照一照镜子。。害怕看到严肃的自己。。我很怕。。。自己跟自己说。。‘建有。。。笑。。’
我笑不出。。我做不到。。

有时候。。。sap ha..sap ha...会是很好的。。。真的很好。。



要说的是。。这些日子会过去的。。那一天一定会到来。。新年了。。新的一年了。。
不好的。。快让我看到。。。新的一年。。。我会通通把你们赶走！
很多时候。。

还有一样事情。。。那个日子也要来了。。

不肯定

就。。。。










唉。。
不想讲了。。。T.T

Noticed

woke up early in the morning and sense evil is around...
they're close....yet... so far and evil...
waiting and hoping for you death....
something sad is that... T.T... they....will always beside you...

told ya...simple is good...

fresh feeling...i hope it was real..

it's like a dream... like i was floating.. and im not controlling my soul..
heart beats...i felt it... it's rushing.. when we're touching.. the eyes... ^^

anyhow... it's scary...
do you know how good it is to be simple and innocent ? cuz it makes u believe...
sometimes..things just wont be like as you wished.. things might be complicated in a way they will be.. that's what im afraid the most... while u have eyes and u cant see it.. u have the feeling..but it's faking you...

im honest to my feeling.. i show it on my face..and i mean it..

well , just a couple things i need to say more...

Don't Cry Over Someone Because Someone Else Could Be Falling For Your Smile:)
my recent facebook status update..which i think it's quite meaningful lah..hahhaa..

lastly,i hope the relationship status of us can be futhermore develop.. ^^

and thank you...baby... for the fresh feeling you gave me..this will be the very first ever feeling i had in my life..
mucha gracias..
anyhow, if this really a dream... then it must be a good one..

nothing in my mind..

repeating the same thing everyday..
practise my guitar...
watch some movies...
reading some books....
eat..sleep...

need to get up ...and do something useful for myself...
after a few years..i'll be a working man... few years after that.... maybe a family...
maybe a tonnes of responsibilities i need to carry up...

life isn't easy...
and life isn't long....it's damn short...

scrolling down my photos in facebook...
realised how much time i spent with my friends...happily...really really joyful days...
all my memories...in this life.... until now.... they're the most memorable...
reading back all my posts until the 1st one... i noticed all of them were about TIME..

life is about TIME..

i gained another perception bout it..

somehow i found it is ridiculous to live ...

while alive..juz do what u need to do... RENEWAL is what i need...

use this few months of holiday ... to search ...seek...for the things i need to do..
too much of laziness is haunting me.... games and movies are not neccesarry ..



i'll share some quotes which i read from a book..

''Those who think they have not time for bodily exercise will sooner or later have to find time for illness''------------Edward Stanley

''After a difficult day with the children,'' a young mother says,''I like to take the car and go for a drive.I like to have something in my hands I can control.''----------Lawrence P. Fitzgerald

In making a living today, many no longer leave room for live.----------Joseph R. Sizoo




time to be a man...and do the right thing..

My version of The Lazy Song by Bruno Mars

楊宗緯[那個男人]完整版高畫質MV

HK HK here i come !!

few more hours to HK... now so sleepy..LOL

see you guys after 10days !!! bye bye !!! wahahhahaahaa

hmmh....IT;S SUPER COMPLICATED

relationship eh thing so complicated huh now i know....
not mine...mine one very simple nia..
heard my friend eh 'thing' liao.... feel that.....some part of friendship....some part of social network among ppl...very deep eh.....lol...friend like friend and other friend like other eh friend...

like what my friend found out in Aus ... as she knows more type of ppl in this world... suddenly think that we ourselves very innocent...very pure...lol...
my friend told me...."most of them all have BFssssss before...when they're young.. they already involved in numbers of relationship already'' is i too noob or they too pro ? walao..lol

one thought came into my mind.....which is only an idea...dont think that im an extremist pls...zzz

kik lai liao...kik kik...lai lai...LOL

我要脱离苦海。。。看破洪成。。。。。

人生很奇怪。。。
拚到半死。。。最后也死。。
有钱到半死。。。最后也死。。
帅到半死。。。最后也死。。
美到半死。。最后也死。。。。
人生就这样咯。。。。开心就好。。做多点功德，，，以后不要再做人了。。做神。。LOL !!

i know this sound childish and pantang..but this is a fact....u wan how???
if read liao tulan...pls forget got this blog..if read liao syok... i dont care..this is your choice ma..lol

BYE another day

怕。。

妈妈说。。：“需要吗？傻的你。。如果人家接受你。。早就接受去了。。还有很多女孩子啦。”
算是搞不清楚状况的去我。。。静静的等她啰嗦完。。。

想回去他讲的话。。其实。。我几年前就听过了。。
但我依然是傻的。。

有一阵子。。还发现到其实我们的关系已经很僵了。。连朋友都怕我们聚在一起的时候的感觉。。
最近妈说：“再跟她表白多一次啦。。可能现在不同了。。如果失败就找别的咯”
突然感觉还可以有希望。。就心想。。不能就找别人咯。。。（以前也这样想过）
第六感告诉我不要了。。。但依然依恋。。。见到她的那种奇怪的感觉。。从没变过。。

之前被拒绝后。。。告诉自己以后再也不会对她有感觉了。。
现在。。又来了。。。
有时候非常讨厌自己那种无法自拔的感觉。。。理智告诉我。。。不。。其他的感觉又要我去。。

就因为有前一阵子的尴尬。。。现在又想换个方式来找她。。
其实很明显她又有感觉到什么了。。。
就只有几个可以联络到的方法。。都显得自己会烦到人家。。。

就。。。她条件太好。。。选择太多。。。虽然我不自卑。。也许我具体上。。。没有她要的东西吧。。
具体上的东西就是这样咯。。好比有些食物。。感官让人感觉不是很好吃。。。就给自己一个概念。。。“他不会很好吃”。。就很可能不吃或给别人了。。。

但愿如果有机会。。以后如果如果。。。。有女朋友。。。我一定会非常珍惜她。。

听起来很渴望？不啦。。其实顺其自然就好。。。现在想办法做一些能让我赚很多钱的事情。。

damn it... i wrote the whole thing in mandarin....==...LOL !!

one sentence i duno how to express in mandarin words...

''FUCK YOU WORLD !!! WHY RELATIONSHIP THING....AMONG HUMAN SO COMPLICATED ??!?!? "

晚安。。

and sooooo

i've lost the motivation to cover that song....

hi blogger i missed you..

how should i start to write? ==..

what i have in mind today? key words key words..come on..

709...
a great day to be remembered....

Bersih thing... friends.. chunglingbw my memory hub...movie...family...and maybe the least important thing 感情世界.. my feelings..and the last thing i wanted to do....is record and post some songs cover here....hope it works...

i'll skip the BERSIH thing...cuz lately im so disappointed to our country...curse those damn corrupted leaders...T.T..im crying for you Malaysia...ok skipped..

i'll start the topic about the happenings today...
morning..wake up....bla bla bla...went for basketball in CLB....
which made me thought a lot ... bout my dear friend....Eng Hui..who are now resting peacefully in a better place....as time passess...the sadness become dull as i think back those memories we had...and i remember i told Tong today..:"his leaving is just like Cheryl....like went to a far place and we can hardly communicate again"...
the path we walked through before we reach the basketball court...the stone bench we sat b4 which we used to talked a lot bout anything....quarrelled ..laughter..anger..sadness...pain...sweat and the feeling of tiredness after a one harsh match...the same old rim... same old floor....NOSTALGIC !!!

something that must admit..secondary school life was the best time i ever had..
back to the basketball court...
nearly 10.30am...rain starts to fall...everyone of us running through the rain...laughing in the rain and shading our head... just like the old time....form1 until form5.. im like listening back what we used to say ... laughter... still..i can remember every significance of everyone's laughter..ecspecially Eng Hui's...
OH GOD !!! my SPM and 1119 cert still in school....zzzzz..erp..

on the afternoon..i tried a thing that i never did before...
i watched movie alone.....sounds kinda sad right ? oh nonono..im happy.. althought there's still some little sad part in it i realised..
i watched transformer 3 and i watched movie in the cinema alone for the 1st time!! COME ON !! the feeling is awesome man... and ps..dont ever say me emo... i just wanted to try out the feeling..actually i wanted to do this so badly since this March..and i dont know where the motivation from..and i just did it today...

ok..the feeling of watching alone...
i was late for the movie for 5 or 7 mins i guess.. missed out one little beggining part...cuz i went to a wrong seat...LOL. but luckily i realised quickly...shiao liao...
eh..i missed out one part.. i bought the last ticket of the hall.. entered and sat beside a lonely guy...whom face is full of sadness..lol..and that was a couple seat..two lonely guy watching a nice movie..hoooor..lol.but i enjoyed the feeling ..watching alone made me noticed that...the movie really nice..duno why....this kinda feeling is still new to me..lol
sad part...jio her she mai come out with me...like this lo..

went for a family gathering at night..family hmmh... not much to say bout it..im happy with every second with my family members...as always..i love them and i cherish all the time i had with them..

bout the cover thing...i'll do it A.S.A.P
3.30am now..sleepy ..bye...

Holiday !! im coming !!!....sux.....time flies...

what the heck....im 18 already......
what the heck....im not happy with this...
time !!! pls slow down lar !!!!! i beg u !!!
although im not as happy as old times(because back in secondary or younger,i was innocent)..although im not as young as old time...
but i've learnt more than before...
learnt to cherish....
cherish any kinds of relationship i have now.....
and also....the most importantly....
in this time...i have myself the opportunity to look through a window....
a window of ''should or shouldn't''......XD

should ? shouldnt ? see how it works....

life....short....complicated..and ....this is life.....
but simplicity of it...still remains....if you can find one....it's not that harsh though...
not all things are based on reality...give your mind a place to think.... you're human with feelings...you can play the think out of box game...you can change the outcome of the game...
win or lose....you're the mastermind ...u decide...
people have emotions......if you wish you live happily....let others feel happy in the other hand..

some extreme people usually live in an imaginary 'jail' of the world....
they react and judge without any sense of flexibility in their solution...
momentum came and momentum stokes ....
please.........be matured......dont be arrogant...

“The best thing to give to your enemy is forgiveness; to an opponent, tolerance; to a friend, your heart; to your child, a good example; to a father, deference; to your mother, conduct that will make her proud of you; to yourself, respect; to all men, charity.”

OMG.....a face.....a CB face...i knew it ...hahahha

so funny la...
really a CB face...
i cant believe it.......
keeping stalking people..u think u're freaking ninja hor ?
like so pro aneh....
no one wonder ppl you're the so called ''CB FACE'' !! hahahahaa !!

I felt quite suck lately...and im not emo ..im juz fed up..

lately my facebook wall is spammed by my bunch of friends....im here emphasising that

i dont mind what they said that im a gay..because i know this is a tease.....and realistically...im not ofcuz.. im straight and im normal...what do i have to care so much...

i enjoyed the tease so much..i laugh so hard ever since one post of them was posted up...

im not sensitive at all...i didnt treat it so seriously at all....friend tease friend is just a normal friendly communication....but when it became too excessive....it feels suck...sometimes...

and sometimes when you're teasing a person....you have to measure whether it will be too much or not....you're a human....u can control of yourself...

what i fed up a lot lately..is.....the way some friends treated me....

they show no respect at all.......a friend who shows no respect to you at all makes just you feel sad...it's awful....feeling of superiority complex will kill a bond....bonding of family and friends..

and sometimes you thought them are your only besties...but how come you feel like ended up alone....and thinking..:''do i really have a true friend? or...do i really can share my secret with them? ''

im gonna make it clear that...it's not related to the GAY topic....

u come to me and say me gay.....it's ok...i'll just laugh and carry on to another topic... it's not a big deal..but sometimes u have to see what is the occasion that forbid you to tease a person in a wrong time and in a wrong topic....

come on..this is not a skill to prove yourself better or you have skills in socialising...

this proven how childish you are....

try harder to reflect yourself into the mirror ...when you feel you're better than other.....there must be a lot of things that u have ignored...the thing that you will not realised easily...which will be also your most fatal weakness.... people will see it....easily...in the matter of time....

you talk as if you understand everything in a quick glance and pretend to be an understanding person to another....come on..you only see the surface..what if i make a drama in front of you? disguise you and misled you.....this is gonna be fun..watching a puppet who thinks he can move by itself.....

u know what....silence of the observer doesnt mean.......he witnessed nothing....

observer see something more important than correcting your weakness....

Happy Birthday to all October babies..

Happy Birthday Libra

....

zzzzz

seriously...thinking bout the past...made me emo for now..

actually i planned to slept earlier tonight.....

but soddenly i listened a song....which meant a lot for me.....

it's not the lyrics...it's the time matter ......

the time when i was listening to the song...

the atmosphere....the lullaby....

but it's not my favourite.....

feeling emo now..........

song is the food of our soul which i think it is......

^^